Lyrics from Bucktown Kickback’s “SPEAKEASY”
All Words by: Adam Brooks Dudding
Copyright 2005, all rights reserved
WATCH YOURSELF
You’ve been listening to the lies on the TV set, wondering how much worse things are gonna get. And maybe you’ll roll over on your bed that’s filled with clover, all those wishes you’re bound to regret and all those plans you made are running further than you can get. “Is all the trouble worth it?” You’ve been listening to the voices filling up your head, trying to forget what all those people had said. And after you recover from the loss of yet another lover, this time you might stay home instead. And WELCOME to the land of I LOST MY WAY. You’re just walking down a road that your dreams couldn’t pave, and you look in your pocket for the money you saved, but it’s all been spent, you don’t know where it went. It left you without a trace, just like Everything, Runs Away. You’ve been listening to the sounds of an empty room. Cold plaster bouncing your breath back into you. You hide behind this wood and wire, thoughts don’t come without that fire. Burned out baby break of day, Find the time just slips away, Start off walking set the pace, Watch Yourself Run Away.
GIVE AND TAKE
Wish I was sitting there tangled up with you, but to my dismay you’re too far away and I’m blinded by this view. Searching for your silhouette, eyes on fire burned with sweat, reminds me of that time I told you never to forget. You don’t know what I would do to turn this thing right off and sit down next to you. Wish I was sitting there that’s what I’d like to do. Hiding out, holding on, floating in to you. Listening to the band, trying hard to understand how no one ever moved me like the way I know you can. It has occurred to me like a hurricaned sea that I won’t have to settle down for you to sail on me. Well the give and take makes me insane. I want to give so much but I don’t want to take the pain. Try, if you can. Learn to understand. I want to give my all I’m gonna give all that I can. Wish I was sitting there singing just for you. Long embrace, let’s celebrate this love we fell in to. Conversate, relate, rotate, found true love twist of fate. Well, hold on to it tightly ‘cause it’s bound to float away. You don’t know what I would do to turn this thing right off and sit down next to you.
A GIRL LIKE YOU
I walked in to the bar. It felt like coming home. There’s nothing like homemade beer and this stool to rest my bones. I’ll have the usual, and pass that ashtray down. Tell me a joke or two ‘cause I love the way that your voice sounds. She said, “Life’s got me down. It’s been some years since I felt like myself, but could I get you another beer?” I like hangin’ out and downing a few. And I could see myself fallin’ for a girl like you. She said, “I’ve been working hard, and how about you? It’s been a while since I’ve seen you here, when that band was playing the blues.” “We watched the game last night, worked on my car ‘till three. I’m gonna go to that fishin’ hole would you like to catch some fish with me.” Then she said, “I worked a double last night. I’m getting sick of this job. I’d like to thank you for that invitation, let me tell you when I get off… I’m done around two. So how does that sound? ‘Cause I love fishin’ and drinking beer and then maybe we can fool around.”
COUNT ON ME
Little darlin’ won’t you call my name if there’s something on your mind. When I hear you I’ll come running across that line, you can count on me. Oh, can’t you see I am yours definitely. Who knows where we’d be, if you would only count on me. Well count on, anywhere around this big old world, you’re always on my mind. We’ll be together whether it’s rain or shine, and you can count on me.
ASHES
Everytime I’m finally home, you’re covered in ashes. When I wonder where you are, you’re probably up in the attic. How it’s been so long. (and I wonder where you are) You are my favorite song I never wrote. I lost you in my sleep. You play hard to get now. When I’m walking down my street, you know I lost you there somehow. If you pass me by you won’t know. You can’t find where I hide. You don’t know. When it’s late and I’ve been drinking, the words don’t make sense. I think I probably do too much thinking, as you watch me walk that fence.
EVERYDAY LIFE
Don’t say “I love you” just to hear yourself say it. Don’t say “I’ll miss you” when it’s you who goes away. Just try hard not to let yourself get used. Don’t take for granted those I.O.U.’s. Don’t ask the questions you know the answers to. Defend the people you know you’ll never loose. Don’t say “goodbye” if it hurts you that bad. Don’t take for granted the things you know you have. Don’t believe what everyone thinks is right. Don’t believe you’ll never make it through the night. Don’t believe the end is ever out of sight. What’s wrong with you will always be alright. Don’t try to hold on if it’s time to let it go. Don’t speed it up if it works out better slow. Don’t turn away or hide yourself from the light. Don’t take for granted this everyday life.
THREE WEEKS
It’s been exactly three weeks since I’ve seen her and I’m trying hard to keep her off my mind. But I’m hangin’ out at the very same place I met her, just sitting here hoping that she walks by. She’s got the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen. Those eyes that make my heart skip a beat. A voice like an angel from ol’ Galilee. And a walk that will knock you right off your seat. I’m talkin’ ‘bout this woman and what she’s doing to me. I see her face when I wake up in the morning. ‘Cause she’s been in my dreams every night. I’m longing for the next time that I see her, so I can let her know she’s on my mind.
SIPS OF YOU
Darlin’ cry for me tonight. I will be alone despite the feelings that we share. Rest your pretty head upon this pillow of regret, my love could take you everywhere. But every time you come around you build me up then tear me down. My feet don’t seem to reach the ground, my voice gets caught up in it’s sound, “have you lost sight of the love we found?” You weren’t in my mind before I stumbled right across the floor and fell in to those eyes. And now since taking sips of you, drunk on everything you do I just fall apart inside. And every time you come around you build me back up then tear me down. My hands are tied, my feet are bound then you just turn me right around, but don’t just tip me over knock me out. Darlin’ can’t you see this ain’t the way it’s got to be. We can agree to disagree, can’t loose for trying. And hopefully you know this ain’t the way it’s got to go. You need to lighten up that load then you’ll be flyin’.
PUNCH IN THE NOSE
It’s been the kind of day that makes you feel like you could be dreaming. The things you heard them say… it’s been easy to find things so unkind in words chosen too carefully. Can’t you see, I’m the one that bleeds. “It shouldn’t be this way…” and that’s all you said about it. I’m sorry to say, that it’s been easy to find things so unkind in words chosen too carefully. Can’t you see, I’m the one that bleeds. I’m just trying to let you know, the cut of your knife, babe, is just like a punch in the nose. I’m beggin’ you down on my knees, “please stop!” making me bleed.
SINCE YOU BEEN GONE
Since you been gone I’ve done some thinking. Since you been gone so far away. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to stay. Since you been gone I’ve been so lonely. Since you been gone and left me here. I’ve tried so hard to sleep through these cold nights, but I just wake up, wishing you were near. You came from out of nowhere. You caught me by surprise. Since I’ve been missing you, I just hope you realize. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to die. Will you come home my little darlin’? Will you come home from far away? When you come home it’ll be too long dear, since holding you through the night until the break of day. Well you came from out of nowhere and you opened up my eyes. Before I wasn’t looking but now I’m just forced to realize. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to die.
MILLIE’S MILE
If you listen real hard you can hear the Colorado running cold and rolling with the wind. From the mountains west, to my baby’s arms again. Won’t you take me there old highway? Take me there old friend. Keep me rolling towards that setting sun. From the desert’s edge, to my baby here I come. I might be running out of daylight, might be running out of steam. I’m running out of luck, the night is catching up to me. But any time or anywhere or any way I can, I would cross a million miles just to hold my baby’s hand. It’s been too long since I’ve seen her and all these nights alone keep me up and make me feel too far. From my lonely dreams, to my baby’s open arms.
ANYTHING
It’s something inside of me. It’s more than it ought to be. It’s coming around again, pulling me down again. It’s here in this you and me. It’s haunting and it’s hard to see. It’s here in this town again, tracking me down again. It’s hard to call it anything, when it’s gone. It’s hard to call it anything at all. It hangs like this tapestry. Glass walls in front of me, weighing me down again. I’m not making a sound again.
META
Jump on that train that was rolling down the tracks. I’m leaving this town and I ain’t ever looking back. Gonna make a brand new start. Gonna find my pot of gold. Gonna search for all the answers to the lies that I’ve been told. And I won’t need to buy a ticket. I’m bound to find a ride. But I’m so tired of all this heartache, all these thorns in my pride. It might have been the caterpillar but now it’s the butterfly. Wish I could tell you what I had felt, before I lost track of where I left myself. It might have been in Aspen County, might have been in Santa Cruz, it might have been in San Francisco where I learned to sing the blues. I can’t believe it’s been so long now. That life I left behind. But I’m still tired of all this heartache, all these thorns in my pride. It might have killed the caterpillar but now it’s the butterfly. I want to fly away… to a place where you never know just what to expect… to a misty mountain streambed where I’ll wash away regrets… and I know when I leave I ain’t ever looking back… and I’d take you there…but I can’t. Well I came to climb a mountain but got stuck down on this hill. And I’m contemplating sitting here until I find the will to beat this indecision, make a final run, get back on that train and race the setting of the sun. And I won’t mean to leave you hanging, just holding out your hand. But aren’t you tired of all this heartache? I’m just an honest man. I might have been the caterpillar but now I’m the butterfly.
SWEET EMBRACE
A sweet embrace is all I need to know that I’m alright. A sweet embrace to wake me up in the middle of the night. When I feel like I have lost my way, it’s good to know that love is alive these days. That’s all I need. A sweet embrace to let me know that I will be alright. Sometimes our lives get so confused. We can’t get away from all these things we have to do. There’ll be times it’s hard to stand on your own two feet. That’s when a sweet embrace is all you need. If you feel like you have lost your way. Just remember love is alive these days. That’s all I need. A sweet embrace is all I need to know that I’m alright.
All Words by: Adam Brooks Dudding
Copyright 2005, all rights reserved
WATCH YOURSELF
You’ve been listening to the lies on the TV set, wondering how much worse things are gonna get. And maybe you’ll roll over on your bed that’s filled with clover, all those wishes you’re bound to regret and all those plans you made are running further than you can get. “Is all the trouble worth it?” You’ve been listening to the voices filling up your head, trying to forget what all those people had said. And after you recover from the loss of yet another lover, this time you might stay home instead. And WELCOME to the land of I LOST MY WAY. You’re just walking down a road that your dreams couldn’t pave, and you look in your pocket for the money you saved, but it’s all been spent, you don’t know where it went. It left you without a trace, just like Everything, Runs Away. You’ve been listening to the sounds of an empty room. Cold plaster bouncing your breath back into you. You hide behind this wood and wire, thoughts don’t come without that fire. Burned out baby break of day, Find the time just slips away, Start off walking set the pace, Watch Yourself Run Away.
GIVE AND TAKE
Wish I was sitting there tangled up with you, but to my dismay you’re too far away and I’m blinded by this view. Searching for your silhouette, eyes on fire burned with sweat, reminds me of that time I told you never to forget. You don’t know what I would do to turn this thing right off and sit down next to you. Wish I was sitting there that’s what I’d like to do. Hiding out, holding on, floating in to you. Listening to the band, trying hard to understand how no one ever moved me like the way I know you can. It has occurred to me like a hurricaned sea that I won’t have to settle down for you to sail on me. Well the give and take makes me insane. I want to give so much but I don’t want to take the pain. Try, if you can. Learn to understand. I want to give my all I’m gonna give all that I can. Wish I was sitting there singing just for you. Long embrace, let’s celebrate this love we fell in to. Conversate, relate, rotate, found true love twist of fate. Well, hold on to it tightly ‘cause it’s bound to float away. You don’t know what I would do to turn this thing right off and sit down next to you.
A GIRL LIKE YOU
I walked in to the bar. It felt like coming home. There’s nothing like homemade beer and this stool to rest my bones. I’ll have the usual, and pass that ashtray down. Tell me a joke or two ‘cause I love the way that your voice sounds. She said, “Life’s got me down. It’s been some years since I felt like myself, but could I get you another beer?” I like hangin’ out and downing a few. And I could see myself fallin’ for a girl like you. She said, “I’ve been working hard, and how about you? It’s been a while since I’ve seen you here, when that band was playing the blues.” “We watched the game last night, worked on my car ‘till three. I’m gonna go to that fishin’ hole would you like to catch some fish with me.” Then she said, “I worked a double last night. I’m getting sick of this job. I’d like to thank you for that invitation, let me tell you when I get off… I’m done around two. So how does that sound? ‘Cause I love fishin’ and drinking beer and then maybe we can fool around.”
COUNT ON ME
Little darlin’ won’t you call my name if there’s something on your mind. When I hear you I’ll come running across that line, you can count on me. Oh, can’t you see I am yours definitely. Who knows where we’d be, if you would only count on me. Well count on, anywhere around this big old world, you’re always on my mind. We’ll be together whether it’s rain or shine, and you can count on me.
ASHES
Everytime I’m finally home, you’re covered in ashes. When I wonder where you are, you’re probably up in the attic. How it’s been so long. (and I wonder where you are) You are my favorite song I never wrote. I lost you in my sleep. You play hard to get now. When I’m walking down my street, you know I lost you there somehow. If you pass me by you won’t know. You can’t find where I hide. You don’t know. When it’s late and I’ve been drinking, the words don’t make sense. I think I probably do too much thinking, as you watch me walk that fence.
EVERYDAY LIFE
Don’t say “I love you” just to hear yourself say it. Don’t say “I’ll miss you” when it’s you who goes away. Just try hard not to let yourself get used. Don’t take for granted those I.O.U.’s. Don’t ask the questions you know the answers to. Defend the people you know you’ll never loose. Don’t say “goodbye” if it hurts you that bad. Don’t take for granted the things you know you have. Don’t believe what everyone thinks is right. Don’t believe you’ll never make it through the night. Don’t believe the end is ever out of sight. What’s wrong with you will always be alright. Don’t try to hold on if it’s time to let it go. Don’t speed it up if it works out better slow. Don’t turn away or hide yourself from the light. Don’t take for granted this everyday life.
THREE WEEKS
It’s been exactly three weeks since I’ve seen her and I’m trying hard to keep her off my mind. But I’m hangin’ out at the very same place I met her, just sitting here hoping that she walks by. She’s got the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen. Those eyes that make my heart skip a beat. A voice like an angel from ol’ Galilee. And a walk that will knock you right off your seat. I’m talkin’ ‘bout this woman and what she’s doing to me. I see her face when I wake up in the morning. ‘Cause she’s been in my dreams every night. I’m longing for the next time that I see her, so I can let her know she’s on my mind.
SIPS OF YOU
Darlin’ cry for me tonight. I will be alone despite the feelings that we share. Rest your pretty head upon this pillow of regret, my love could take you everywhere. But every time you come around you build me up then tear me down. My feet don’t seem to reach the ground, my voice gets caught up in it’s sound, “have you lost sight of the love we found?” You weren’t in my mind before I stumbled right across the floor and fell in to those eyes. And now since taking sips of you, drunk on everything you do I just fall apart inside. And every time you come around you build me back up then tear me down. My hands are tied, my feet are bound then you just turn me right around, but don’t just tip me over knock me out. Darlin’ can’t you see this ain’t the way it’s got to be. We can agree to disagree, can’t loose for trying. And hopefully you know this ain’t the way it’s got to go. You need to lighten up that load then you’ll be flyin’.
PUNCH IN THE NOSE
It’s been the kind of day that makes you feel like you could be dreaming. The things you heard them say… it’s been easy to find things so unkind in words chosen too carefully. Can’t you see, I’m the one that bleeds. “It shouldn’t be this way…” and that’s all you said about it. I’m sorry to say, that it’s been easy to find things so unkind in words chosen too carefully. Can’t you see, I’m the one that bleeds. I’m just trying to let you know, the cut of your knife, babe, is just like a punch in the nose. I’m beggin’ you down on my knees, “please stop!” making me bleed.
SINCE YOU BEEN GONE
Since you been gone I’ve done some thinking. Since you been gone so far away. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to stay. Since you been gone I’ve been so lonely. Since you been gone and left me here. I’ve tried so hard to sleep through these cold nights, but I just wake up, wishing you were near. You came from out of nowhere. You caught me by surprise. Since I’ve been missing you, I just hope you realize. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to die. Will you come home my little darlin’? Will you come home from far away? When you come home it’ll be too long dear, since holding you through the night until the break of day. Well you came from out of nowhere and you opened up my eyes. Before I wasn’t looking but now I’m just forced to realize. Since you been gone my mind has been made up. In your lovin’ arms is where I want to die.
MILLIE’S MILE
If you listen real hard you can hear the Colorado running cold and rolling with the wind. From the mountains west, to my baby’s arms again. Won’t you take me there old highway? Take me there old friend. Keep me rolling towards that setting sun. From the desert’s edge, to my baby here I come. I might be running out of daylight, might be running out of steam. I’m running out of luck, the night is catching up to me. But any time or anywhere or any way I can, I would cross a million miles just to hold my baby’s hand. It’s been too long since I’ve seen her and all these nights alone keep me up and make me feel too far. From my lonely dreams, to my baby’s open arms.
ANYTHING
It’s something inside of me. It’s more than it ought to be. It’s coming around again, pulling me down again. It’s here in this you and me. It’s haunting and it’s hard to see. It’s here in this town again, tracking me down again. It’s hard to call it anything, when it’s gone. It’s hard to call it anything at all. It hangs like this tapestry. Glass walls in front of me, weighing me down again. I’m not making a sound again.
META
Jump on that train that was rolling down the tracks. I’m leaving this town and I ain’t ever looking back. Gonna make a brand new start. Gonna find my pot of gold. Gonna search for all the answers to the lies that I’ve been told. And I won’t need to buy a ticket. I’m bound to find a ride. But I’m so tired of all this heartache, all these thorns in my pride. It might have been the caterpillar but now it’s the butterfly. Wish I could tell you what I had felt, before I lost track of where I left myself. It might have been in Aspen County, might have been in Santa Cruz, it might have been in San Francisco where I learned to sing the blues. I can’t believe it’s been so long now. That life I left behind. But I’m still tired of all this heartache, all these thorns in my pride. It might have killed the caterpillar but now it’s the butterfly. I want to fly away… to a place where you never know just what to expect… to a misty mountain streambed where I’ll wash away regrets… and I know when I leave I ain’t ever looking back… and I’d take you there…but I can’t. Well I came to climb a mountain but got stuck down on this hill. And I’m contemplating sitting here until I find the will to beat this indecision, make a final run, get back on that train and race the setting of the sun. And I won’t mean to leave you hanging, just holding out your hand. But aren’t you tired of all this heartache? I’m just an honest man. I might have been the caterpillar but now I’m the butterfly.
SWEET EMBRACE
A sweet embrace is all I need to know that I’m alright. A sweet embrace to wake me up in the middle of the night. When I feel like I have lost my way, it’s good to know that love is alive these days. That’s all I need. A sweet embrace to let me know that I will be alright. Sometimes our lives get so confused. We can’t get away from all these things we have to do. There’ll be times it’s hard to stand on your own two feet. That’s when a sweet embrace is all you need. If you feel like you have lost your way. Just remember love is alive these days. That’s all I need. A sweet embrace is all I need to know that I’m alright.
